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| Hello, I'm stopping by to do a little up date. It's been a long time. I've had a lot of maturing over the years. When I look at my posts now on this I kinda realize how over dramatic things got in my simplistic life and I also see how immature I was too. Then again I still am immature, to a point, but who isn't. We all have our moments of being kiddish. Anywho, over the years I figured a lot about some of my friends. Brina, for example, has been back-stabbing people right and left. When it comes to Denny and the whole, how Denny hurt Brina thing. It was all a lie set up by Brina so she could get attention. It's quite pathetic really. That she would do something like that to her friend. Not only has she done something like this to Denny, but she hurt Amanda too. She's hurt all of us and she is paying the price by having no friends, which is her own fault. She shouldn't of bad mouthed her friends in the first place. She shouldn't of lied just to make someone look bad and herself all innocent and good. She deserves what she gets and it is as simple as that. This is the reason why I choose to stay away from Brina, I don't want to get backed stabbed again. You know brina's isolation has driven her to telling me that she likes me, which drove me even farther away from her. Just so she can have someone because she was so desperate. Well, your a little late on that dear. You had your chance, but you kinda ruined it for your self, sorry. Plus, I'm gay so you kinda missed your chance for life.When it comes to my friend Spencer, where closer than ever. You know I began to think things would never change, but when I came out about my sexaulity things really started to change for me. I became more open to people. I became a person. I developed my own sense of style and I bloomed within my school and now I'm not alone anymore. I have friends that are there for me. Real good friends. Like Amanda for instance, if I never met her I would of never changed. I would of never developed into the person I am now. I would of still been that whiny, depressed kid, and I would of never found myself. I'm real happy now. I even have a boy friend. His name is Sean and he's very sweet and understanding. Where planing on meeting up this Summer and I'm really looking forward to it. I all ready met him once. I got my first kiss!!!!! <3
My life still isn't perfect. When it comes to my family it's slowly breaking apart. Sadly, there's nothing I can do. Accept watch it crumble. My mother is a psycho. My Grandmother is in the nursing home and she might never walk again because of her knee surgerie and because of my psycho mother. The only people in my family that are in there right mind is my uncle and aunt, but they stay away from the family because of the corrupt ways of my Grandmother and my mother. There's a lot of stuff I could tell you about my mother that would make you hate her for life, but I really don't feel like getting into it. If you want to know, ask me, simple as that.
Well, that's pretty much it. I'm probably not going to update again. I have to many things to keep up with and I can't have this on my list. It's just pulling me down. However, I will leave links in case anyone wants to contact me, but I'm pretty doubtful anyone will. I mean who would look at this? xP
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http://www.myspace.com/fallen_adversary
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Remember Montauk
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Green Statues
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| Hi, again, it's me, Tyler. Whose stopping by to update, sorry, for not updating sooner, but I'm kind of lazy, and I could care less about updating from time to time because no one comments, which I don’t blame them. Anyway, today is a good day because our school closed due to fog. I hoping that this Friday I could go to Spencer’s house for the night. I really hope I have a good time their, me and Spencer haven’t really talk to each other lately, part of it is because I’ve been avoiding him for a while. The whole reason I started to avoid him is because he was starting to act like Julia, Nadya, and Emily, which equals one big super bitch. He’s ok from time to time it just gets really hard to talk to him when he starts to act like an ass. Today I plan on going to see Amanda at her home, and hopefully we’ll have a good time. I think Sabrina’s coming, but I could care less. She put me threw a lot of crap, and after all of the pain and suffering she put me threw I’d rather stay away from her. From time to time I do talk to her, but I just don’t like it when she has to be a blunt bitch. I also found out something about Sabrina and scum bucket Denny that has also driven me back from her, dramatically, and because of this I will never talk to Denny again. I have no respect for him what so ever, and as for Sabrina, I’m surprised I’m even talking to her. One other thing that has upset me is Joey has decided to leave all of us from Eastwood so he could spend more time with his Elmwood friends. I don’t mind that Joey want to be with his Elmwood friends, but it really upsets me that he gives up on communicating with us, I mean where his friends too. Don’t we mean anything? He just gave up on us, like that. Rachael and me haven’t really gotten time to work on the duck tape project. I hope we can finish it sooner or later. We have it started we just need to work on it for a few days. The only reason why we haven’t had time to work on it is because Rachael has been busy with her job, and she’s been busy searching for colleges as well. Hopefully, we’ll be able to sort everything out, I hope. | | |
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Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
By Jim Carrey, Kate Winslet, Gerry Robert Byrne, Elijah Wood, Thomas Jay Ryan, Mark Ruffalo, Jane Adams (II), David Cross (II), Kirsten Dunst, Tom Wilkinson, Ryan Whitney, Debbon Ayer, Amir Ali Said, Brian Price (IV), Paul Litowsky, Josh Flitter, Lola Daehler, Deirdre O'Connell, Lauren Adler
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I know I haven’t posted in a while, so sorry if anyone was waiting for a resent update, but I most likely doubt that anyone cares took look besides Rachael. I know I’ve had a lot tell you, but I’ll try to keep it a short and simple as possible because I do not feel like writing a lot. First off, the Texas trip, I had lots of fun and I got to seen a lot of things. It was very beautiful it reminded my of Venice because their was a river that went throw the city and we got to take a bout ride threw it. I really enjoyed Texas, if I had to pick a place to live it would probably be Texas because of its large beautiful large buildings, and the busy crowds of people that you don’t even know. I mean yes it is partly nice to live in a small town, but you kind of get tired of it. You feel like your concealed in a small space, and you just want to be free of all the pressure. Well, Know that I updated you on my trip lets update on how my summer went. My summer was really well spent. I mean part of it was well spent because half of it I ended up stuck at home sick, and the other half I spent with my friends Spencer mostly. I ended up going to the pool a lot with him, which was really fun, and he spent the night a lot. The only thing that really upset me about my summer was that I didn’t get to spend time with Rachael much, but that was partial my fault, and I didn’t get to see Joey at all. Today kind of sucked. I mean when I look at it, it looks as if it was a good day, but I think it was just the way I was perceiving it. I really don’t think today was that bad, but I just felt awful for some reason. Then again there are reason for why I think it went bad. One of them could be the fact that I feel like I’m getting sucked back into the same place with Spencer again which I really don’t want to get into again because I was really upset then. Another reason could because Nayda, Emily (mostly Emily) has been poking fun at me, and its just getting to me. Rachael says it’s could be because she likes me, but it’s really get annoying. I really feel like I’m starting to drift away from everyone, and I just don’t like it, and that is why I feel so bad. I really don’t want to go back to avoiding people (like Spencer for example), but feel like I need to in order for people to notice, but that would make things worse, and I don’t want to drift away from people. I'm just so confused at the moment.... | | |
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Ello! I’ve been avoiding my xanga lately and I apologize for that. A lot of stuff has happened resonantly. Wed. was a sucky day for me. I had to stay home because I’ve been sick, which means I can go to the swim team. So I’ve been on the computer for most of the day. When I was starting to get bored I decided to call Brina to see what she was up to cause I wanted to talk to her and maybe do something nice for her. Well the phone call suck @##. I mean here I was trying to have a descent serious conversation, and she was being a @$#!* to me. So what I did was I joke back with her until she said that I was acting like Manda, which is pretty Ironic when Sabrina is doing the same to me. God you would think she would understand how I feel when Manda put her through that. I even tried doing a few nice things for her, but instead she just said that she didn’t give a crap about it. God, I so sick of being treated this way. I try doing something decent, and nice, and I get thrown in the mud. Spencer used to do this to me, but luckily I talked to him about it and he’s been a lot better friend. I’m glad I told him how I felt. Lately I’ve been feeling isolated from everyone (not by choice). I’ve just been sitting in this house all day with nothing to do. I tried talking to Sabrina the one person I was hoping would talk to me, but it didn’t happen. I haven’t had a decent conversation with her accept for the last day of school. I swear becaouse of all of this I feel like no body gives a @#*% about me. For example on DSB I try making one single topic about me and my personality, and not one-person post. It’s like @#*$ this I’m leaving because it just seems that not one person gives a crap, but then again it’s probably my fault for not posting much, but I tried! I mean yes there a few people who care, but I haven’t talk to them. I just feel so lonely. Luckly I was able to talk to Spencer and he made me feel a lot better. Thanks Spencer without you I might have gone of the deep end! That’s all I have to say.
Quizilla Quizs!
Whats your element?
http://quizilla.com/users/animeRme/quizzes/What%20element%20are%20you%3F%3Fnow%20with%20picychure!
your water.
you are relativly calm but can be angered when someone dispespects you. you love walking in the rain and watching thunder storms. your friends sometimes think you are being a loner with them(don't talk with them for a long time) but you just want some time to your self. your friends sometimes don't understand this and think that you don't want to be there friend. your weapon would be sais. your colors is blue and grey.
http://quizilla.com/users/Catyse/quizzes/Where%20was%20your%20soul%20born%3F%5Bpics%20%2B%20detailed%20answeres%5D
Where was your soul born?
Your soul was born in the Ocean.
The true daydreamer. Your element is Water. You're calm and collected, just like Earth, but unlike Earth you love to daydream. You love to create a world of your own and just drift away in daydreams. You observe but you rarely interfere. You don't like large crowds, but you have a few friends and you're not afraid of making more as long as you don't have to take the first step. You're careful to pick your words and you hate to hurt people. You are very easily hurt yourself and if someone harms you or your friends in any way, you will probably never trust that person again. You need to face the world. You can't hide in your dreams forever. Don't give up just because something didn't go as you planned! More chances will come.
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